Time

Time for some change for some excitement. Time to get it in gear and make things click for me.

Click

So a person I work for told me the other day that when things finally click in my life I will go a long way because I am a brilliant and hardworking person. what does it take for my life to "click" for me?

Journals

I was doing some cleaning and sorting and found a few of my old journals. Strange as it maybe they all start the same way. "It has been awhile since I have written in a journal" and then goes on for three or four sometimes as many as nine or ten pages and then the rest of the journal is blank. I have six such journals, each holding an incomplete entity that would be me. Why am I so easily moved away from writing about myself and my feelings? Even in this blog there are months that go by without a note and then I write a few thoughts and am once again on hiatus for a few months. Is it just my inconsistent nature, my failure to finish things that I start. I was recently at house of a friend of a friend. This house was more of an older Victorian mansion than a regular house. Two people and two dogs live in this huge two story house with around 15 rooms. The amount of work that needs to be done in that house is staggering.
The amount of work that has been done is phenomenal. The problem that they have is they never finish one project before starting on another. Is this my fate? Will I be constantly in a state of unfinished projects? Who knows

OMG New post.

Love is like a song.

Plays in your head throughout the day.

Bringing a smile to your face

Or making you hum a tune to yourself.

Like every song, every love has an end.

Though they may play over and over.

The song is no less moving, sweet or beautiful

for possessing an end.

And neither is love.

For these reasons.

Love is like a song.

Dreams

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.
~Les Miserables

Back by singular demand

So someone has been pestering me to update my blog more often.

I have been working a horrible amount of hours. A few weeks ago I called in sick (first time ever for this job) missed an entire 8 hour day and still worked 44 hours that week. Yeah this has been the story of my life for the last few months. I dont know when the last time I worked less than 4 hours of overtime a week but they have been very few and far between.

I am planning on going to the NYPD. Fate saw to it that it wont be in time for January academy. I got not one, not two, but three flat tires in 2 weeks. Granted one of them was the same one, it had gone flat and I had used fix a flat but it didnt work, but the other was as I turned into the Walmart parking lot I hit a piece of metal in the intercetion and popped one of my front tires. So about 2 hundred dollars later I have new tires :(

But 2 people that live in NYC that I had been trying to get ahold of contacted me right after the time I would have gone down there had I been able. I guess things happen for a reason anyway. So if things go miraculously I will be able to go in January, if not I will be going in July to NYC. July might possibly be better because it will give me more time to work out and get healthier before going. I have been cutting down on my soda intake, havent cut it out but I dont drink more than 2liters a day like I used to. I am down to drinking about 1 liter a day and am constantly working on drinking water with crystal light in it (tastes awesome).

Politics

Warning--- These are just my opinions don’t take offense

Political views are like foods. Everyone has a favorite and most people don’t know why it is
their favorite.

So at work I get bored and end up reading the paper everyday. Imagine my surprise when I learned McCain had picked Sarah Pilan to be his running mate. I know she was in the running but I always thought he would pick Tim Pawlenty. I don’t know why I was shocked; I knew Hillary wasn’t going to be on Obama’s Ticket and it is a good move for McCain to have something for the majority of voters (being female puts you in the majority). I later learned that she is very pro-life, this is a very touchy subject for a lot of people, especially women.

I personally didn’t really have a preference for either party. I am registered as an Independent and don’t really believe either party is in it to help the people. I mean a 5week summer vacation when the country is fighting the worst energy cost crisis in decades… that’s dedication right there. Both candidates have a lot going for them, obviously or they wouldn’t be the nominees. Obama has the charm and charisma but lacks the experience. McCain has experience but let’s face it a box of cereal could be more interesting. That being said, Obama took himself out of the running in my book. I was appalled to hear that he had gone on a tour all across the world visiting foreign countries and playing the diplomat, only to blow off veterans at a hospital in Germany and ended up playing basketball all morning. In the many interviews he stated that he didn’t want his visit of the troops to seem like a political stunt. The whole reason for the trip was political, and was paid for by his campaign fund. I don’t understand what he was thinking. Their views are basic cookie cutters of their parties, and even then there are only small differences so that was the deciding factor for me. To me it showed a huge lack of respect for the soldiers at the hospital. Similar to when Hillary was scheduled to do a small appearance at the town where I grew up. There was a crowd of people there to meet her and because she stayed at the previous location too long she drove right through the town didn’t even stop. Makes it hard to believe they care about us little people.

Wall of text...complete.
Thoughts…incomplete.